originally posted on monday, december 27, 2004

i'd like to keep the fun going - so, no matter when you've stumbled upon my journal, feel free to post questions of your own!

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Ask me questions, and I'll answer! And then I'll ask you some. *heh*

it's not that i'm normally unapproachable or secretive (snarky, yes ... secretive, hellz no), but perhaps you've just been waiting for the right time (which, *now* is always the right time for me) ... or mebbe we don't get to see each other outside of party space so personal questions seem a bit odd ... or whenever you see me you're so bedazzled by my smile you completly lose the power of speech ... or mebbe you have no clue who i really am and you just need a diversion from work *grin*

i love memes

originally posted on thurs, may 11 2006

i had an extremely horrible and physically violent dream

my best interpretation is that ... i'm not listening enough

which, i'm inclined to believe

so

tell me

anything you like

wish me well

wish me ill

i'm listening

(anonymous commenting is always on, additionally i'll screen today - no one will hear you but me)

originally posted on fri, feb 2, 2007

and, since i'm crap at writing 'em - i turn to you, dear reader ~grin~

here's your chance, tell the world what you really think they should know about me

leave a comment, with a line you think best describes me

i'll compile 'em all and put up on the front page - no editing, no tweaking

(yeah, even you odd lil people who hate me but still have me friended for reasons only you know)

i'd say ... i'm at 65% of normal

have been able to walk (yay!)

even managed to cook lunch

right before the incapacitating pain on thurs, i'd taken chicken thighs and ground turkey out of the freezer, intending to turn them in to lunches for work next week

let's just pause and savor those words (for work next week!)

with not being able to walk or stand well the last two days, cooking wasn't an option and i worried the meat would go bad

walking (bu tnot standing for long) was possible today, so i tossed the thighs in a casserole dish and let 'em bake for an hour @ 300 (which i thought might have been too long, but that's how long it took me to recover from all the ambitious walking) (turns out, they weren't quite done, so i turned the oven off and let 'em sit for another hour)

once i had the thighs out, the ground turkey went into the same dish (not a lot of cleaning getting done around here lately) and i set some rice to boil on the stove

i have just finished eating a most delicious lunch of arroz con pollo (rice with chicken ~heh~) and there are two lunch bowls full, waiting to go in the freezer

i think the ground turkey will be paired with some tomatoes and other veg in the future to make sauce

and now i have to stop typing coz leaning back just made my back spasm, dammit

my back went out @ 11 am thursday

literally between one step and the next

i had just enough time to fumble for meds (muscle relaxer and pain) and stumble to the bed

it has seized so brutally i couldn't walk (as i found out when i surfaced from the drug haze and needed to pee)

this is the worst episode yet

today is marginally better

i waited thru the haze of the pain meds before trying to reach the couch

success!

20 hours lying on my back has made other muscles ache, so i'm trying sitting up for a spell

holy shit!

i think i may have just been offered a job

i'm still a bit fuzzy as the call came while i was sleeping

(for the record, i am de-fucking-lited to be woken up when you are offering my a job ~grin~)

it's a 6 month contract, crazy good money

no phone or in person interview beyond the recruiter

i need to pass a background check

the job is with the government (ack!), sorting out the food storage issue for deployed troops (hooray!)

i like deployed troops, and i especially like that i'll get to ensure they have not only a well balanced, but tasty set of supplies

~pets the poor troops~

i made an appt with the contracting company to see them this afternoon to sign the papers

they were so cute! wanted to do everything by phone/fax and send me to the client on monday with no face to face time

how awesome is that?

now, i have to decide if i want to re blue my hair right this minute (which i'd been delaying for ... 2 months) or go have it trimmed (which i'd been contemplating for ... 3 months)

because i'm not quite certain i can pull off having this watery green color, for a gov'ment gig and i really don't want to scare him away this afternoon (theory being: for a week after re bluing, it's usually so dark folks can't tell. and, i'll be in and showing off mad skillz by the time it starts to fade)

ETA: i went with re bluing ~grin~

erm, but

there’s not enough of it left to finish the project

so, i have to buy another skein?

and then, end up with a larger amount left over than i had before?

~grin~

i’m going to make the Celtic Wanna Be in 4 of the colors i’d used for my Blooming Cotton … Bag (which is so close to being finished! just need to cut out the lining fabric and sew it up. mebbe i'll tackle that on fri)

i’m thinking cream/black for the bottom and top zigzags, then the aqua and darker blue for the body

turns out, i don’t have quite enough black left over and there was already a yarn shop trip planned for friday and and and …

i’m going to be taking this class next week

very excited ~bounce~

wanted to let folks know, anyone want to join me?

November 22nd: Spinning With A Drop Spindle - 1-5pm

Have you desired to learn how to use a drop spindle so that you can turn fiber into your own handspun yarn? This is the class for you. Take the class and you’ll leave with your own mini skein of yarn!
$35, materials included (you get a drop spindle of your very own!)

Lisa R. Myers & Rosie’s Staff
Rosie’s Yarn Cellar
2017 Locust St.
Philadelphia, PA 19103
215-977-YARN
rosie@rosiesyarncellar.com
http://www.rosiesyarncellar.com/classes/classeshome.shtml

aww

there's a bit o' drama about my fav charity lending organization, Kiva

looks like folks were thinking that each dollar they donated would go directly to an lendee chosen by the donor (not unreasonably, given Kiva's previous home page promise, “Kiva lets you lend to a specific entrepreneur, empowering them to lift themselves out of poverty”)

when i was researching charities a few years back, i looked closer at Kiva's verbiage and determined that my individual dollars would, instead, fund a pool of potential money being meted out by a micro finance organization that had offices on site in a community

and, i was quite happy with this as it's exactly what i'd wanted: a way to back a local lending organization who would find lendees for me

the new information seems to indicate that Kiva leaned too hard on the individual-to-individual spiel and folks who didn't do the digging around i did, are now feeling ... disenchanted

it's still true (and, so far as we know, always been true) that our donor dollars *do* reach individuals (with clearly described interest rates listed for each of the micro finance companies so you can choose who will transfer the closest to 100% of your donation)

what we know now is that the lendees listed on the site have already received loans from the micro finance companies and, in essence, lenders are donating into that companies pool (rather than to the lendee directly)

i'm glad to have the new information (you can read the responses from Matt Flannery, Co-Founder and CEO of Kiva.org)

and, glad to see that my understanding of what i wanted to do and what i am doing isn't so far off (the difference for me is *when* the loan originates. i thought it was after my donation. turns out, it already happened)

in fact, i was always uncomfortable with the urging to choose one lendee over another,based on the written loan requests from the individuals. now, i can choose one micro finance company over another, based on statistics like default and delinquency rates or interest rate or percentage of loans to women vs men or regional reach (i have a desire to reach folks in north america)

summary: i still heart Kiva, i will still lend at the same monetary level. i hope they take this as a chance to re examine how to talk to lenders, no more dissembling. stay strong, Kiva!

i had an over full weekend spent with two very different sets of friends

samhain over night vigil with the druids on saturday

bridge at my place plus watching Dollhouse on sunday

there was laughing and crying and sharing and wonder and delicious food

i'm tired and happy and satiated

haven't yet decided if i'll turn it into a bag (you know i will, when have i ever worn a hat?)

the pattern is the fake isle hat, a play on the stranded knitting technique called fair isle

( here's a pic and more rambling )

here's a picture of my dinner

( ~grin~ )

~claps~

we had such a loverly time in bellydance class tonight!

our teacher put many of our basic moves together in a row, calling out each when it was time to change

it was more challenging than normal and very fun

we continued learning the short routine with our veils

there are few things more gorgeous than women in a circle, swirling around bits of shimmering cloth

i've been having a wonderful time with Door to Door Organics

today's delivery consisted of:

4 largish roma tomatoes
2 huge portabella mushrooms
2 medium green peppers
3 small yams (real yams? they are smaller and darker than sweet potatoes)
1 small acorn squash
2 long bananas
1 bunch o' grown up spinach
1 bunch o' long leafy lettuce
3 oranges

all for $26 (including shipping) delivered to my door this afternoon in a cold box (sometimes there's an ice pack, sometimes it's cold enough from the truck)

i haven't quite done the math from my local supermarket, but i think this might be quite a bargain when i remember this is all organic veg - anyone have a better notion from your own shopping?

i've discovered that not only can you list automatic substitutions (i asked never to receive brussels sprouts, they should be turned into squash), but for each delivery you can make up to 4 additional swaps. this is a delightful level of customization

i'm still working out whether i want this size delivery every week, or every other week. some times i run out of fresh veg (like this week, couldn't make quiche!) and sometimes i'm overwhelmed and things go bad

this is more a product of my depression than it is a reflection on the quality of the veg ~heh~

they do have a really easy to use "vacation" option. i think i might set myself up for weekly deliveries and then decide each thursday if i want new veg to arrive the next monday. if i don't, i'll use the vacation option and then evaluate next week. if i do, then on friday i get to make all the fun substitution requests (yes, picking veg is my new fav video game)

later today, i'll use the mandolin on most of the veg (plus a zucchini and a green pepper left over from the amish market). i'm going to try the balsamic vinegar olive oil trick for the roasting this time round ~yum~

the ny supreme court says trans folks no longer need to obtain a doctor's note to change their names

i just came home from Tuesday Night Knittin' Therapy with the Langhorne ravelry group

~bounce~

it was awesome!

small (~ 10-12 folks) but in a wide comfy living room

very friendly and happy folks

much show and tell with lots of praise and questions

i spent equal time sitting and listening to the chatter as i did joining in

it's a weekly meeting, less than 15 min from home

so happy i finally went to visit them ~claps~

i feel set adrift

unanchored

for 7 years, i had a commitment to be honored

she was magnetic north, you know? the direction i tended to track toward

i'm no longer flailing in free fall - those first two weeks after were horrible and i had, once, a clear and sincere wish to stop living

i'm better now

but i'm still ... floating

sort of direction less

i've never lost a primary before

and, for 7 years, she's been there when i'd lost any other sweetie

i keep forgetting she's the one i've lost and find myself wanting to turn to her for comfort with this pain

it's so hard to believe she choose to break our cardinal rule: tell the other when you are sad, try to work it out

i still have no idea what pushed her to that choice and, when i'm not careful, i spend an unhealthy amount of time with my brain spinning around the possibilities

most i'm just ... floating

my wonderous organic produce was delivered this morn

between this and my recent market trips, i have a huge variety of fruit on display

not to mention veggies to roast this afternoon

~wiggles~

also, the door to door folks gifted me with a spontaneous avocado

i've never used one before, any tips on ripeness or a good guacamole recipe?

holy shit

i was all excited to go thru my new '10 paper calendar to write in the events i want to take note of

as i went thru, i realized that, with 2 exceptions, they were all things i'd created with my triad

and i won't be celebrating those days anymore

not the least of which: yesterday, oct 10, was the grrlie'versary

i tried not to think about it during the day, just pretended it was any other saturday

wow

it really is a great deal more enjoyable than philly pride

at giovanni's room, i found my next paper calendar ~wiggles~

i start getting antsy, the further i get into oct, when the next year's cal hasn't been acquired

there were many tables of local (ish) vendors offering hand made wares

i bought a beautiful purple star shaped box with two lil magnets to hold the lid on

there's a charm attached to the lid that says "dream"

and, when you open the box, there's a tiny sticker on the inside saying "happiness"

did i mention that it's sparklie?

oh yeah, it's completely me ~heh~

i've been having trouble sleeping and the bad dreams have begun again

after my house guest has flown off home, i'm going to try being more meditative before bed

might find something currently on my altar to put in the box and then keep the box near my bed to look at and ponder on when i can't fall asleep

coz, fer serious, these dreams are not at all welcome

fer serious

10 min is a long time

if what you're doing is hand whisking chocolate soup

in the hopes that it might become pudding

leave the frozen pie crust in the fridge for 3 weeks while you wibble about making quiche

roast veggies at some point in the last few days

realize you probably don't have enough cheese in the house

wonder how they hell this could happen and run to the store

do the month's grocery store shopping when really all you need is cheese

take a pie crust from the fridge

admire the greenish gray tinge

flail

cross your fingers and hope there's half a box of dry crust mix somewhere in the pantry

score!

make a beautiful rolled crust

misinterpret the direction to "prick thoroughly" (again)

bake the crust for 8 min til it's gorgeously tan

remember that you haven't yet wilted the spinach

apply butter plus medium heat to hastily washed and torn spinach in a cast iron skillet for less than 5 min while the crust bakes

admire your mad cooking skillz

layer wilted spinach, shredded cheese (i love a mix of mozz and sharp cheddar), roasted veggies (any amount you have laying around, try for a cup or two but less will work. you'll get a thinner quiche with a higher egg ratio is all) and more yummy cheese into the crust (sprinkle fresh ground pepper and italian herb mix on one or two layers - don't worry that the roasted veggies already have herbs on 'em. i think mine was a bit bland due to this silly worry)

cobble together 2 separate quiche recipes and decide to beat 3 whole eggs and a bit less than 1/2 cup milk rather than whatever measurements they were thinking of coz you don't *really* like eggs and would rather not taste 'em in the final product

pour the egg mixture over the veggies. there won't be a lot of it (perhaps that's why the real recipes gave the measurements they did ~koff~), so try to hit all the corners while you pour so there won't be a dry spot

add more cheese!

bake @ 350 for 30 min

find that your over enthusiastic pricking ~heh~ has left holes in the crust down thru which egg has dribbled, then cooked, then turned into glue tenaciously holding the crust in place

realize that covering the holes with wilted spinach never works

resolve to live a better life

all hail!

~heh~

first two batches are in the oven

one's on a silpat/cookie sheet and the other's on foil/pizza pan

i'm guessing the second will cook faster

i've set my timer to go off in 30 min so i can turn every body and check their progress

i'm happy to say they didn't look any worse for their overnight fridge stay, no huge brown sad bits( cutting in a random spot, coz i've added a pic )

there are tiny golden potato cubes in the oven, happily baking next to beef kielbasa

should be done in 15 min

and then!

i shall chomple it ~wiggles~

have chopped/mandolined all the old veggies picked up from the clark park market last thurs, plus the new ones from the door to door organics delivery today*

i have a visit to paying client this evening, when i get back i'll set the huge piles of veggies to roasting

i'm guessing it'll take 3 turns ... mebbe i should pick up another cookie sheet?

or! i can put foil on the pizza pan ~nods~

*note: don't attempt to process these two piles of veggies at the same time, ever again ~whew~

i have an interview this afternoon

for a staffing agency (certified women owned, which is awesome)

it's out in KoP

in my normal life, i would have called and offered to meet the other members of my triad for lunch, since i'll be near their town and we loved having sweeties lunches

~big sigh~

there's such a big hole, where they used to be

if you are one of the intrepid few who will gather to play bridge this afternoon, then a slice of this could be yours!


( quiche! )

in a hour or so, mr james will arrive to sweep me away for dinner and a movie (julie and julia!)

then there'll be bridge tomorrow (and hopefully a roasted veggie quiche will get made tonight to bring)

an interview on monday morning for a staffing firm

plus!

two hours paid work monday evening

my little consulting/training company, Sunny Day Data, has a client! ~wiggles~

i haven't made it an official company ~grin~ it's not even a web site yet

but! it's a cute name and i have high hopes for it's future

~claps~

i got 9 hours of wonderous sleep

(sadly, that meant i had to miss book group, as i went to bed at 8 pm)

today is cleaning day

i started @ 5:30 am (but, that's just coz it's 9 hours after 8 pm. not coz i've suddenly developed a hankering for mornings ~grin~)

tossed dishes into the washer and set it to buzzing

i re sorted my closets and dressers. summer clothes are now in clever thin boxes under the bed. the closet has a happy mix of t-shirts, long sleeved light weight shirts and sweaters. sweat pants/shirts for lounging around the apt are in the dresser

after a break to play Oasis and an lie down, i put away all the yummy new yarn that's come into my world in the past month (into a cupboard recently vacated by summer clothing - who was clever to start in the bedroom rather than the living room? Hint: me!)

managed to fit all my happy making works in progress on to the bookshelves. put away large projects that i'm not realistically going to pick up again, found a nice space for 'em in the closet

another pause for chef salad and Northanger Abbey - quite a delightful production

soon after the movie was done, Lucy arrived. she comes in once a month to do all the parts of "cleaning the apt" i don't wanna

i put the dishes away while she tackled the bathroom and managed to clear off the dining room table before she needed to start on the living room

i know it might sound a bit silly or odd to be so happy about a cleaning day

but, maintaining a comfortable living space is one of the things i struggle with. and this past few weeks i've been ... less than Donna Reed, let's say

having Lucy come over usually gives me the motivation i need to take care of the larger tasks, and i was kinda worried about how i'd be feeling by today, ya know?

so, the desire to make my space more livable and the energy to do so are welcome

i think crisis mode is over

many folks have been extra wonderous ~woojah~

this past week, i've found myself laughing spontaneously and enjoying music again (tho, break up songs are right out)

i'm going to be sad for quite a while more and will still struggle against depression, but i'm no longer a danger to myself

i had a cathartic therapy session last wed

it was really helpful to have someone else acknowledge the ... WTF feelings, the whole where they hell did that come from confusion

i'd mentioned the difficulty with not knowing what i'd done to make her break our agreement

the resulting crazy making swirl of thoughts that said everything must be my fault and i'm a horrible person

and how hard it was to remember that it wasn't entirely true @ 4 in the morning

when i got home wed night, there was an email from therapy man

the sub line: It is not all your fault!

i heart my therapy man

have ya'll checked out the Free Rice game lately?

they've expanded from vocabulary to about a dozen different categories

i was surprised to find i reached level 4 (of 5) on world geography!

and, i managed to boost my vocab to level 47

that's what a lifetime of sci fi and fantasy reading will getcha, oh yeah

(right, and uh, 3320 grains of rice will be donated to the UN world food program today)

EEeEeE

as a fan girl cirque club member, we can get tix at 40% off - $48 for the best seats

we'll be seeing the show on tues, oct 13

i'd be happy to collect cash (via paypal or in person) and order the tix (prolly this thurs) so our group could sit together

the possible dates are below and i'm happy to choose any (with a slight aversion to fri evening)

who's in?

Tuesday, October 13, 2009 at 7:30 pm
Wednesday, October 14, 2009 at 7:30 pm
Thursday, October 15, 2009 at 7:30 pm
Friday, October 16, 2009 at 3:30 pm
Friday, October 16, 2009 at 7:30 pm

Featuring an international cast of 55 performers and musicians from 17 countries, Alegría is an impressive mix of skill, strength and speed combined with elegant, almost ethereal performances.

ferserious, if you have the cash, this show is spectacular

directions to the liacouras center in north philly - http://www.liacourascenter.com/parking-directions - so, not the usual washington ave location

i'm pondering getting a fondue set

for broth, to cook meat and veggies, and for cheese, to dip bread and veggies

any suggestions, o wise flist?

next monday, the 28th, we'll have ljtourist visiting from the far reaches of seattle

i set myself the task of locating a place for dinner (i firmly believe food should not have a day of the week restriction ~harumph~)

there's one 2 blocks from the italian market, which just might be perfect ~wiggles~

i love dim sum ~chuckle~

libitina sez they offer menus rather than mysterious steaming carts

this might help avoid being served shrimp called vegetables

we'll be gathering @ 7:30

comment if you're interested and i'll add a seat for you (the more the merrier - bring along any folks who might enjoy hanging out with us)

Dim Sum Garden
59 N 11th St
philadelphia, PA 19107-3004 US
(215) 627-0218

does anyone either have a three hole punch to give away, or access to one?

i have a very nice stack of printed knitting patterns and i'd like to put them in three ring binders when i'm not working from them

after mr james left last night (there was crafting and crying ~woojah~) i picked a magazine to read in bed instead of a book

@ midnight i was pleasantly sleepy and managed to fall asleep without much trouble ~hooray~

standard anxiety dreams ~boo~

woke @ 5:30 am, rested but in pain with cramps

right, so did i mention berry week started yesterday? i'm so gonna holda grudge against mondays, man

i read for a bit, then laid awake with the swirling thoughts of no good for an hour

that's my limit for trying to sleep - past that and it's just going to get worse, never better

so now i'm up and starting the day

with only 5 or so hours of sleep i'm not feeling too bad, amazingly

i'm having a delish breakfast of fresh organic fruit (delivered right to my door!) - got a banana, plum and nectarine

all the produce looked wonderful and i've quite given up the melodramatic passing fantasy of pining for love and wasting away

organic produce as cure for a broken heart? ~heh~

i think for lunch i'll make a salad from the lettuce, green pepper and tomatoes

a mixture of improptu and planned events should keep me sane til sun

mr james will be here in a few minutes

i'll be at bitmonger's tomorrow night

there's bellydance on thurs, which i love and have sorely missed

there's west wing on fri with skyethebard, both of which i similarly love and miss

apple picking sat should be distracting and enjoyable

that leaves me with just wed to fill

and i plan to be out of crises mode by sun

coz, dammit, longer than that and i'll run out of enough moisture to make tears

i haven't eaten since @ 7 this morning

it wasn't until amyqoe said her heart hurt for me that i realized the knot of pain i've been carrying around just under my breast bone wasn't entirely emotional

so, an update

casfesh has decided he'd like to break up with me, too

tho, i suspect that's more to do with him not quite seeing how any dyad that didn't predate the triad could survive

i chose not to try to explain the possibilities

they're on their way home now. they came up to my place tonight for a fam mtg and stuff swap

we dissolved our triad in 41 minutes

the grrlies are nothing if not efficient

earlier today, when i said the decision had been made after much thought, i didn't mean to indicate that we'd been thinking about this together and come to a conclusion

no, this was a complete surprise to me - so i went back and changed that line

dpfesh has decided to end our relationship and dissolve the triad we had together with casfesh

we'll be talking tonight about the details, finances and what not

i'm sure all three of us will need your love and support

ETA: when compiling invite lists, please don't stress. invite whomever you will enjoy spending time with: 1 or all of us. we will not bring drama with us

in my experience

very few good things happen at 9 am

and, i picked today to try and get my sleep cycle back to normal

which means, i haven't slept since ... some time sunday afternoon, i think

i was planning to stay awake until at least 9 pm so i could start the sleep cycle over in a dark room

if i tried, i *might* have been able to pick a worse day to be sleep deprived and depressed

mr james helped me update my resume last wed

today, i uploaded it to ~ half a dozen sites

then, spent solid two hours applying

i didn't keep count, but i'm gonna guess ~ 100 positions

plans are back on track to create a professional website

i could use some help coming up with copy - how to describe what i'm offering. any one wanna pitch in? i'll make ya dinner ~grin~

had a wonderful time at meditation with the druids tonight

asked my questions

received some answers

assembled a plan for how to get thru the next bit of time

right now, there's delicious home grown organic basil making my home smells wonderful

i brought enough home from libitina's garden to fill all 5 trays of my dehydrator ~wiggles~

this'll be the first try drying herbs in the machine (tho, i've done plenty just sitting on the counter for a while). i'll check 'em every half hour, i think

tomorrow, i might try blanching and peeling some tomatoes as a first step on the way to sauce

i placed my first order with Door to Door Organics

( ramblings 'bout organic, local and seasonal ness )

my very first knitted pair*

( am all proud )

oh my!

it's been years since i drove that far up Rt 13 north - also found a yummy new kebab restaurant and a new second hand shop (have raided all the necklaces for beading projects) (found no le creuset, libitina)

there seemed to be a nice crowd @ 4 pm, so i'm hoping the vendors are doing well and the market stays around for a while

it's indoors, like reading terminal (one tenth the size ~grin~), with many diff vendors offering both cooked and raw food

very nice layout, with wide aisles

( many things to squee over )

today sucks

and i've only been awake for 2 hours

i'd like a do over, please

note for future:

non violent communication techniques don't work on drunk neighbors at 2 am

i think i've got bronchitis

again

started on tues with sinus pressure, runny/stuffy nose, watery eyes and itchy/crinkly ears, with a tiny fever (99.5)

i threw benydryl and sudafed at it, along with pots of steamy tea

i thought i'd got the best of it this morn

til i coughed, that is

greeny yellow sputum

~le sigh~

have called Doc Wilson (he's off on thursdays), left the saga on his vm

hopefully, he'll call back tomorrow with an action plan (an appt to see if it's bacterial (hooray! antibiotics) or viral, plus how we can avoid getting to the inhaler stage this time)

i'm *so* over being a gal who gets bronchitis every fucking year

red alert for all folks i've got weekend plans with: i can raise the level of keeping myself to myself, and you can choose to come within 5 feet of me or not. it's not an airborne thing, it's a physical contact and then putting your hands in your mouth/rubbing your eyes type thing (which, i wish i could remember to do less often ~grr~)

ETA: antibiotics acquired and consumed. extra points to my doc's office for monitoring vm even on days off. if i'm not better by sun, i'll need to make an appt on mon

~claps~

this is awesome

the folks at CBS embedded a video ad in a print magazine

soon! we'll have those filmy flimsy slips of plastic with newspaper headlines scrolling across, like in Serenity

each month, folks post a wish list and when possible, someone fulfills it

i've spent the last couple of hours reading thru the lists

have promised some of my DMC embroidery floss in blues and greens to a gal in argentina who's just starting out with needle work

and several sets of handmade stitch markers to folks across the country who need a little pick me up

am hoping new sock and lace weight yarn comes my way

i found an excellent deal on ebay for the yarn i need to finish zerodan's other sock

(the whole "one sock blue, one sock black" plan was politely turned down ~heh~)

it's a loverly bluey lilacy color that dpfesh helped me pick out

it shows the stitches beautifully and is a completely machine washable and very soft acrylic

i was able to pick up 4 skeins, just need one for the sock and the other three can become something else dreamy

i need to get dressed and leave my apt every third day

i need face to face interaction with humans that like me every fourth day

when those two get off track, it's harder to struggle against the depression

i don't qualify for a new unemployment claim

the penn legislature is aware of the huge horrid honking problem

i am eligible for further state extensions (13 weeks) of my march 08 UC claim (having exhausted the federal extensions)

it's hard to remember to unclench my jaw

knitting is soothing and mind quieting

knitting from 11 am to midnight doesn't make my hands ache (tho, my left elbow did start to twinge ~ 11 pm)

i'm appreciative of all the "ZOMG" comments ~woojah~

for the "what can i do" folks - hanging out and pretending the world hasn't ended (again) would be loverly. drop me a line when you're free